Day 21:Keto on….the doctor is in!

imageWell, my doctor (Dr. Hutton) ¬†joined in and got on board with the ketogenic diet yesterday, and apparently that’s all I needed to mentally kick it into high gear.

I have been struggling LIKE CRAZY. Talk about walking around feeling like a total failure at the whole thing, but not for lack of trying, that’s for sure! It has been rough, and very humbling for me.

So when I heard he was starting and was planning to be into ketosis in about 24 hours, that was just the motivation I needed to charge ahead. There’s no way I was not going to let him beat me there! ūüėČ I’m glad he doesn’t follow me on social media or I would have to confess all this to him, although I did tell him he is now my competition. haha

I realized a very important thing today, and I have to give my amazing husband credit for this….he said I should aim for 0 grams of carbs so I could hit around 15 grams of carbs or less. And guess what? It worked! I feel so much more successful after today and hope to have an amazing day hitting my macros tomorrow as well. I think my biggest challenge has been finding the right things to eat. It has been such a big learning curve for me!

Maybe this is pathetic but I was almost in tears this evening when I saw my chart and how I KILLED my macros today. I hit everything pretty close to dead-on to my goals! (My goals being 100 grams of fat, 50 grams of protein, less than 20 grams of carbs)

In addition to all of that, It was a very emotionally challenging day for me as I’ve been with some stuff in my right leg that has had me about scared out of my mind that I am¬†going into a relapse, so I’m trying to get the pain and discomfort¬†under control.

I have more to say about all of that in another post but I tell ya what, it takes up a lot of head space fighting fear, which is what makes today’s victory even more amazing. Today was a reminder to me of why I do what I do. Why I even work so hard to do this diet for my brain. I need it. I hate fear. I hate how it wants to run my life, and I refuse to let it. I truly cannot afford to let it have any place in my heart!

Anyway, thank-you God for your grace and for the small but important victory today. I needed it.

Cheers to all of you who are working so hard, and are kicking butt! I know it is not easy!

 

Keto on.

 

Day 20: What is defining you?

Ok first– wow, sorry I went MIA for a bit there!

Life has been a little crazy, a little hard, a little painful and also just busy in a good way for the last week so I had to make the decision to set aside blogging until things slowed down from my trip, my birthday festivities and dealing with some personal painful situations I have been walking through.

 

But….I’m back now! ¬†ūüôā

I had a situation this afternoon where I was at the pool with my kids in the HOT Tennessee  sun. After about an hour, I felt myself overheating and had to rush the kids home pretty quickly so I could get out of it as quickly as possible.

I felt my left eye (the one that lost most of the eyesight temporarily back in 2006 due to an MS episode) get a little blurry and spotty and then I really knew I had overdone it!

I was disappointed because a friend of mine had invited me to attend a exercise weight class with her tonight, and I was REALLY looking forward to it!

As I reluctantly texted her and told her I couldn’t make it due to apparently too much heat and sun, I felt the old familiar sting of frustration hit me as I remembered what I deal with and how hard it is sometimes to feel held back from what I think is no big deal for everyone else, and how nice it must be to have their body cooperate with them a little more than mine does. (maybe not always true, but that’s how I was feeling at the time ;))

As quickly as I felt the first thoughts and emotion hit me, than just as quickly I felt something rise up within me reminding me that I get to choose what defines me! I can choose to be defined by my limitations or I can choose to be defined by who God says I am! 

My limitations tell me things: like I am weak, I can’t keep up with everyone else, I will always be held back by my illness, I can’t do the things I want to do, etc etc.

But God tells me: I am strong, I am capable, I am victorious, I can do all the things He has called me to do because of his strength, nothing is impossible for me as long as He is involved.

Every day in the smallest of situations, in the briefest of thoughts, we are constantly making choices in our minds, the place where our the biggest battlefield lies. The choice we are always confronted with is: What are we going to choose to believe?

Our limitations tell us lies but God always speaks the truth to our hearts.

We cannot afford to forget that we have an enemy of our soul who is fighting to keep us held down, to keep us from believing that we are truly victorious; but our God is on the other side declaring over us that He loves us, He has a plan for our lives, He is for us and NOT against us.

I don’t know about you but I REFUSE to be defined by my limitations! I am going to make the choice to line my heart and my thoughts up with what God says about me! The enemy only seeks to drag us down, but God has such an amazing way of lifting us up and encouraging us, doesn’t He?

So my question for you today is: What is defining you? What voice are you listening to? Are you allowing yourself to be limited or empowered with the choices you are making?

The challenge is: Pay attention to your thoughts. Pay attention to what you are choosing to believe about yourself and your situations. Make adjustments if needed. Ask God to help you! He will empower you and give you the strength and grace you need to believe His truth.

Day 16: Am I dreaming?

I’ve been thinking¬†so much today about dreaming, and how important it is to our vitality.

I believe God has placed dreams in each of our hearts, things He has created us to do, to be in our lifetime.

I found myself in tears tonight, telling a few friends close to me about one of my biggest dreams, something I would love to accomplish as a way¬†to help others, if it’s the last thing I do before I die. It moved me that deeply.

It reminded me how important it is not to waste our time, because life is too short and there is much to accomplish!

Some of the biggest time wasters I can think of off the top of my head: ¬†Wanting to do something that others see as relevant and important, being too afraid to take the steps, feeling like it’s too hard to get from here to there, believing you don’t have what it takes to get the job done. Wow, so many excuses why we shouldn’t pursue the dreams in our hearts, but I don’t think we will find true passion and fulfillment in our lives unless we do what we’ve been called to do.

I encourage each of you, as well as myself, to not let anything or anyone hold you back! Pay attention to what stirs up passion in your heart and ask God to show you what he has created you for, and then begin to take steps in that direction!

You will never regret dreaming but you will regret letting dreams and passions go to waste. Making our dreams come to pass requires a lot of hard work but with the passion and the power of God in our lives to help carry us through—it is truly possible!!

Let’s each¬†determine to begin to be diligent, intential and aware of what is in our heart and follow our God-given dreams!

Day 15:Road-trippin’ keto style…..

is definitely no small task but I think I did pretty well, all things considered. I’m exhausted from traveling all day.

So, I bet I hit closer to 20-25 grams of carbs, but tomorrow is a new day to aim for 15 grams again. I did a good job though I think, making sure I add in lots of veggies, at the encouragement of my doctor. One thing is for sure, I’m not going to quit anytime soon. ūüôā

It is pretty tough though trying to find balance within such a rigid diet, but I know each day will get easier and easier, hopefully. I would love to know any secrets any of you keto friends have that you could share with me!

Thanks so much to all of you who are following my blog and keeping up with me. It means a lot! I hope you’ll leave a comment, say hi and introduce yourself!

Day 11: failures vs successes

Today I have been thinking about how quick I am to beat myself over  not being as close to perfection as I would like to be, instead of celebrating victories-no matter how small!

After 11 days on this new diet, I have no idea why but I have been super hungry and craving carbs since yesterday. Sigh! I don’t feel like I’m in “the zone” but not sure why. Hopefully things correct themselves on their own? Despite my disapointment because of this, I am proud that I only ate 40 grams of carbs today and tried instead of fill up on lots of fats. It could have been a lot worse. I believe I got approx 110 grams of fat, and approx 40 of protein.¬†I hope tomorrow is easier!

curious if anyone else has run into this and if anyone knows¬†what ¬†it means. I’m afraid it means I’m not in ketosis, although I certainly hope not!

 

Day 9: No more lies

I can’t even begin to properly express how excited I get reading articles like this:¬†https://docmuscles.com/2016/01/06/the-ketogenic-diet-multiple-sclerosis/

I have felt so hopeless at times over the years in dealing with Multiple Sclerosis, that I could almost weep when I now begin daydreaming and daring to believe that I CAN see healing and recovery in my body, and possibly not have to watch my health slowly deteriorate over the years, as at times I have feared possible.

For the last 9 years, as I’ve dealt with the awfulness of this neurological auto-immune disease and all the setbacks and disabilities I have endured, I am now realizing I have unknowingly tucked¬†away dreams and desires in a corner of my heart, believing I was doomed to just battling out this disease in a reactive position, without moving ahead in life. I have even believed the lie that I’ve missed the boat, that it’s too late to dream (I know, I know–I’m only almost 34 in a couple of weeks, but still….), too late to accomplish much, that I’m not going to have much to even offer anyone. Wow, it all sounds so awful to put it on paper, so to speak.

Lately though, since working with this new functional doctor and beginning the new ketogenic diet, I feel this lie slowly dissolving in my heart and mind. I’m beginning to dream again, to believe that I have God-given gifts¬†and talents that I will be able to use, that I CAN and WILL be a world changer!

Its hard to describe how this¬†feels, besides to say, incredibly empowering. I feel more alive than I ever have in my entire life, and I feel as if I want to take on the world! ūüôā

I now see I¬†was told a¬†LIE, and I believed it!¬†It was a lie to try to hold me back from my potential, to keep me from dreaming of everything I can accomplish in my lifetime, with God’s help. It was meant to make me feel stuck in my circumstances, and like damaged goods, not good for much.

The truth is: I have been created with purpose and destiny. I have been called. I have been chosen. God is redeeming my circumstances and giving me beauty for the ashes of my life.

I pray these words would speak to anyone of you who also have struggled with lies like I have. This is the truth that God speaks to us, we don’t have to believe the lies any longer!

If anyone of you need someone to talk to or pray with you, please contact me and I will pray for you and help put you in touch with the right resources of people who can speak truth to you.

Life is too short to settle for believing lies!

 

 

 

Day 5: Ketosis, baby!

I feel like a million bucks today–I’ve reached ketosis, as confirmed by the ketone strips. Woohoooooo!

So glad I made it to the other side! I hope and pray I am successful at staying here as long as I can, and not be tempted by food around me that does not cater to the ketogenic lifestyle.

It’s been so busy with my kids finishing school but I’ll have more to say soon when I’m a little more caught up on sleep.

Until then….hasta la vista, baby! ūüėČ

Day 3-Keto flu

Today is brutal. I’m almost glad I didn’t know it was coming until it happened and I googled my symptoms to see what I might be dealing with. Turns out it’s Keto flu, as most¬†call it. I’m almost strangely excited to know¬†I’m making progress and that I am completely normal, even though I feel pretty junky right now. My symptoms are mostly issues related to my stomach yesterday and today, and now major weakness and fatigue tonight. Very strange feeling, knowing that I feel sick that it’s almost to be expected and it will push me to the “other side”, into ketosis.

Here is some great info on how to treat it, in case any of you wind up in the same spot as me: http://elowcarbfoodlist.org/the-keto-flu-symptoms-and-relief/

It’s hard not to be down on myself when I have a hard time staying ¬†below 30 grams of carbs a day. IT IS HARD! Today I got up to probably 45 grams of carbs. UGH ¬†I am constantly tracking right now ¬†while I’m on this huge learning curve and trying to figure out what are some great low-carb or carb-free options of things I can eat. I am grateful that I’m not entirely new to l0w-carb eating since paleo is naturally more low-carb than the normal american diet but still….this is a whole new level that I am trying to learn right now. I’ve been researching lots of ideas for food tonight so I am more equipped to do this in the weeks to come.

Onward and upward towards health and healing! Cheers!